Sitting here on this wonderful Friday night!! With nothing to do!! Its funny how "friends" work. I get nice stuff, all of a sudden I have 3 friends. Weird. I am tired of being in competition with people. Can't we all just get along? I thought I had a few friends, but as soon as my husband got his job out of town for some reason I'm not invited to hang out anymore. I just want to know why!!! Please I would understand if you have a good explanation!!!! Right now I am going to assume it is the money issue. I have no other reason to think otherwise. Every time I get something new these so called friends answered with something new of their own. And to think I invited these people to some of my favorite activities and now they show up like they are the freakin' !#&* Just enough to piss me off. I am going to have to find another class because I used to go here to relax now I just get more pissed off when I attend.
I would understand if these one of these people knew the 'whole story', can these folks not hang because I have been with the same group for ten years now????!! Yeah I have special relationships with these guys I've known them longer than you!! DUH. GET OVER IT!!
REAL friends TRUST no matter what!! REAL friends AREN'T afraid to say whats on their mind even if it could be hurtful (at least its the truth!!) REAL friends are by your side through STUPID ideas and BAD decisions cheering you on or being the little voice in the back of your head!! REAL friends DO NOT abandon you when times get tough!! REAL friends are there for life near or far FOREVER!!
I have three friends that truly follow these rules!! One of these ladies I know I could trust with my life, she has already saved me numerous times!! Another is always there she's been through a lot of hard times and always understands and is happy to share advice!! And the last one is always there (well almost) when I need a laugh a pick me up.
I know that these 3 are for life. It sucks that others cannot receive my trust but they have not earned it. when someone is going through tough times does not mean turn your back. When someone is finally successful, maybe a little more than yourself, you shouldn't turn your back and write them off. Like I've said before, money is nice but family is better!! Jealousy is a natural feeling, it's ok, but don't let that stand in the way of a friendship. ( don't mean to sound uppity there but just sayin)
Anyway having a lonely Friday night, can't go to movie, no baby sitter, would go myself at this point if i did. Need to vent all my hubby says is find something to do. I have scrubbed the kitchen top to bottom, not much fun in that. He says he is out of town and is away from all of his friends but he at least has people to go out to eat with after work. I know working all day sucks and then going to a hotel room instead of home is not ideal but at least he is busy most of the time, working or talking work on the phone or going out to eat with bosses. I wish I had people to talk to at work. but I don't even have that.
Speaking of work, just got a new white woman, she is actually skinny and decent looking. I haven't really talked to her yet but she is in my old classroom. Yesterday, a male teacher asked me, "Have yo talked to your competition yet?" I was like, "What are you talking about, competition?" He said, "You know, down there in your old classroom." So weird because I never thought of it as a competition. I would like to have been at least acquaintances with her but now that I know everyone else is seeing it as a competition, I guess that is not going to happen. he referred to our looks. She is a bit taller than I, blonde, and fake tan. So really I guess its just what you into. But we are both married and so are most of the other adults we work with so why are being compared like that?!?!?!? I'm not even sure if she knows this is happening.
But anyway like I said long evening alone nothing to do but think, needed a way to vent. This seems to be it. :)